It’s been quite a morning so far.
Driving my son to school, I had to use all my self control not to flip off the car behind me that was driving just a little too close for my liking. On the way home, I thew my phone after receiving a text message letting me know my data plan had just ran out. Luckily I didn’t drop any of the Dove candy bar I was eating at the time.
This was all before 9am.
A few hours later, I was in the bathroom getting sick.
As I’m sure you can tell, things have gotten a little off track. In fact, I’m feeling like things are off the rails and I need to find my way back to the happier, relaxed, healthier me.
Full disclosure – it is “that time” for me, the cramps and exhaustion have been kicking my butt but I’m usually able to handle things much better than this and don’t feel quite this bad. I know this is because once I got sick last month and spent weeks either working or just in bed, I got in to some really bad habits and have not gotten back on to my good ones.
So this morning, I’m thinking of a master plan, deciding what to do.
Though it may seem extreme, often when things get to this point and I’m feeling this terrible, I take a kind of boot camp approach. I’m naturally a little lazy laid back so sometimes, a big kick in the butt is just what I need.
Summer seemed to crawl by, carrying us on waves on unrelenting heat, humidity and days of boredom from it being too hot to even play outside. Then suddenly it seems, September is here and things have gone from slow motion to super high speed!
This month has brought some awesome changes like preschool and nice, cool weather but it’s also been a bit more on the stressful side. Adjusting to all the changes in daily routine, our environment and how life feels like it’s speeding up can be taxing. (And the holiday rush hasn’t even started – yikes!)
Here are a few ways I’ve been trying to keep as calm and stress-free as possible:
This is a kind of part II of my post on the benefits of meditation. You can read it by clicking here: Meditation – Making Time For the Present Moment.
Meditation is a practice of “not doing”, it’s asking ourselves to stop – everything, like a mental time out. It is a practice of stillness of the mind and body.
This is one of the reasons I think that for most of us, meditation seems so difficult, weird or out there.
Because we live in a culture where busyness is valued.
Being busy all the time means we are important.
It means we are doing great things, we are popular, we are valued.
Quiet Mind and Open Heart
Meditation is something I’ve been trying to make more a part of my life for some time now. I’ll be honest, I have not been the best about setting aside time on a regular basis to keep up a consistent practice but when I think of all the benefits, I have to admit it’s worth it to start looking at ways to make the time.
Much like yoga, learning to meditate has caused me to make big shifts in what I’m used to doing. Because the thing is, it’s all about not doing and that in itself can be difficult to grasp.
Here’s why stopping or not doing, is a good thing:
Every day, from the moment we open our eyes in the morning, our mind is going at full steam. We are often caught up in the past, making plans for the future, worrying, wondering, but rarely is our mind still and rarely are we 100% fully in the moment.
There are times when it feels like things build up and really get to me. Most of the time, I’m chugging along just fine, not all cheerleader happy but managing the day to day ups and downs.
And then there are other times. Times when things seem harder than usual, it feels life weighs heavy and every problem is endless and hopeless.
A couple of weekends ago, I was so down I could not get out of bed. That is what sucks so bad about depression. The little things become so hard and every day life feels like walking uphill with a pack of bricks on your back.
I know everyone goes through periods of feeling down, disappointment and struggle is a fact of life that no one escapes. While hardships can push us to grow, to learn and to evolve, I sometimes think I’m lacking a bit in how well I deal with the tough moments.
Lou is sick today. It doesn’t happen often and I’m thankful for that. I think this fact also makes me a little more worried when it does happen though. After a restless night of coughing, I decided to rest with him while he napped this afternoon. I know he’s fine but a part of me wants to stay close right now. I can’t sleep and am feeling really achy myself so I decide to use the quiet time for something I’ve been thinking about but putting off lately, meditation.